run baby run

I'm halfway through my transition from EFG PR to Kennel Club LAX. I am so! freaking! excited! to see what this place is all about. I want to be able to put my heart and soul into the work that I'm doing.

Dancing In The Moonlight just started playing and I can't help but do a little dance whenever I hear it. It's like Big & Chunky from Madagascar 2...you must listen to it, it cracks me up and I can't sit still when I hear it. CHUNK-AAYYYYY!

Sometimes human beings are so quick to do something "new" that they do a lap and come up behind themselves, making everything predictable again. I can tell by the wording of a text someone sent that they're single again and want to see me, and the message didn't even relate to that. I just know how they work. I can't be bothered with it. In fact, it was satisfying to feel no emotion whatsoever and that's one of very few times I'll say that. It's funny how it doesn't matter anymore- there are many reasons for that indifference but it's especially because I have someone that treats me how I deserve to be treated.

And I'd definitely be crazy to deny that you're the best I've ever had. You make me laugh, make me think, bring me out of the shell that I sometimes take cover in, treat my friends like the gems that they are, and allow me to have complete faith in you. I'm just lucky and very very happy, game over.

Here is a list:

Number of guest memberships at other peoples gyms = 2

Number of miles from work to home = 6

Minutes it takes me to get ready in the morning (on a good day) = 30

Number of months it took me to find a job in LA the 1st time = 0 (job offer came before college ended)

Number of months it took me to find a job in LA the 2nd time = 2 (bank account therefore drained)

Number of months it took me to find a job in LA the 3rd time = 0 (interview on sunday, hired on tuesday)

Number of ER trips in my life = 2

Number of Mental Health Days taken = 1

Hours of sleep per night if I'm lucky = 7

Number of times I can tolerate hearing Lady Gaga, Madonna, Robyn, or Kylie Minogue per day = 0

Number of creepy men that have pulled over and snapped pictures of me as I walk down the street = 1

Number of people I love with all my heart = 27

Number of sunny days per year in Los Angeles = ~300

Number of sunny days per year in Buffalo = ~50

Number of times I've fallen down the stairs in my apartment = 2

Number of airlines I've flown with = 7

Number of airports I've set foot in = 15

Number of places I've lived = 8

joyeux

Today I went to a meeting with a company that I interviewed for a couple weeks ago. Out of all these places that I've interviewed and applied to in the past 2 months, this was the one that I never felt nervous about, this was the one that I really really loved. Today I listened to a very nice man tell me that since they found someone in their NYC office that can handle the majority of the social media, the position was changing to contain more design, and I was a good fit for that position.

I told everyone that I had a feeling this was going to be the one! When I told my dad today he said that he felt the same way when he interviewed for the job he has currently; sometimes you just know =)

Everything in my life is so great, I'm almost afraid to touch anything. I have everything I want.

The cap on my bottle of tea says "DON'T COUNT YOUR CHICKENS BEFORE THEY HATCH"

haha WHAT could possibly happen next?

when you feel your heart overflow

Oh, the state of elation that this unison of hearts achieved
I had seen, I had touched, I had tasted and I truly believed
that the light of my life
would tear a hole right through each cloud that scudded by
just to beam on you and I

I feel like life opened up last night! Had a conversation with the bossmen that I had wanted to have for over a month but just couldn't bring myself to do because I kept thinking "I just need to get past this week and then I'll feel better and won't want to bring it up anymore." WRONG!

wrong wrong wrong Hanna!

I was wrong. I relied on the arrogant assumption that I was unbreakable for the first 21 years of my life, and then met my match. I am most certainly NOT invincible. For me, it took a ballsy and hasty move 3,000 miles away to realize I was being an idiot. And I must say, I hope you don't ever have to feel the way I've felt throughout my realization of it. I know it has been incredibly hard to listen to me, but you all did (over and over) and I am saying THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart. Especially Franklinvillies/Fredonians that stayed up late with me, bought plane tickets to come see me, texted me every day to make sure I was doing fine, and mailed me totally pointless cards once I had an actual address. I will never meet another group of people like you.

No more beating-around-the-bush, I'm MOVING HOME IN MARCH! I celebrated last night and felt totally giddy. And met a man at the bar from Buffalo (I was introduced to him as, "a bigger bills fan than him" which is so untrue, but whatever haha) that hugged me and kissed me and said, "I've never met anyone here that was as awesome as the people I know from Buffalo." There is some sort of weird alliance that Western NY forms. Haha we get picked on for being poor and ugly and cold and WE LIKE IT. And you know why? Because we have Mighty Taco.

My mother is so excited she can't even handle it.

Possibilities on where to go and what to do are very wide open right now and it feels great! Buffalo is not the plan forever, but will be the immediate solution. Laura and I are going to move in together, we already started looking at apartments. Did you know that for half of what I pay now, I could rent a 3 bedroom house on a residential street? How AWESOME IS THAT. Especially cause I'll probably be flipping burgers to make a living for the next year cause Buffalooove has a terrible job market HAHAHAHA. Not really. I'll just live in a box on the street.


Life is back to being p e r f e c t =)

MP3 [Spin Doctors - Jimmy Olsen's Blues]