well sir all i can say is if i were a bridge i'd be burning"
-amel larrieux
I think that romance is something easily forgotten in everything except the opposite sex. I am an intensely romantic person. In thought, in design, in action, in love. Maybe that's why I lose attraction once I get it; the other person just doesn't have room in their life for more romance. Why are we so starved for it? I don't need love letters or people standing under my window and singing to me (though I've had both and they were wonderful), but what happened to our ability to give ourselves entirely to another paying no mind to any darkness that
could become of it? I am hell-bent on relying on practicality in every area of my life...but love. And it seems like so many people here have done the opposite and now I'm in a place I don't think I deserve to be in. I don't REALLY think anyone deserves to be here, but an increasingly scary amount of people I know are. They're all right here, standing on the same little patch of grass looking over the fence...I was in the store today buying gingerale for my sad belly and a lady walked by me singing along to the Sade song that was playing and she had such a pretty voice that it made me sing too. I wonder why I'm such a little bitch when it comes to something I know I'm good at. I should be able to sing at the top of my lungs whenever I want. Truthfully I think it'd make me feel a lot healthier.
I have a sex playlist. Not to say that when the magic happens I am like "HOLD ON" and run over to my computer to press play. But you know how certain songs just have that slow burn to them that makes you think of certain nights that you've had? I won't give away the whole list but here are a solid top ten. And I'll even give you an mp3.
10. Thirteen Days - JJ Cale
9. Since I've Been Lovin You - Led Zeppelin
8. Like a Tattoo - Sade
7. Your Eyes - Amel Larrieux
6. Middle Man - Dive Index
5. Pale Sun - Cowboy Junkies
4. Drown in My Own Tears - Ray Charles (I don't pay much attention to lyrics, just sound. Ignore the sadness haha)
3. Let You Down - Dave Matthews Band
2. We Haven't Turned Around - Gomez
1. MP3 [Best Dress - Damien Jurado]
No Barry White. It's just not my thaaang.
