1. Do you know how it feels to constantly worry, but not even know what you're worrying about? I've done that for so long, and now I'm stopping.
2. I always feel more alive when I have more than one thing going on at a time, almost to the point of trying to trip myself up. If other people try to throw a lot at me at once, I hate it. But if I do it myself, I wake right up. So silly, but very real
3. Last night I stood on my balcony in a towel because I was so excited that it was thundering & lightning that I couldn't even pause to put on clothes after my shower, I HAD to watch it happening because it's been so long.
4. I don't actually mind that I leave work after it gets dark out every night. There's something about the evening darkness in the spring & fall that I always develop a deep love for. It takes me a while to rekindle that love affair in the fall after I come down from an entire lazy summer where the darkness is still yawning high in the haze (to reference a BRILLIANT wilco lyric) when it's time to leave work for the day.
5. My mom called me at 830 in the morning on Monday, and hearing her happy voice on the other end of the phone made my entire week. For a while now I've been floating around in this awful "i'm-tired-of-being-alone" feeling, and I know that I need frequent reminders that I'm wrong about that feeling. More, probably, than most people. I'm not sure when the hell I started feeling so frantic about not having enough love in my life, but there are days like today when it's all that I feel and then even this soggy gray mess of a city seems like the sun is shining all over it.
6. The more I talk to my best friend, the better I feel. Not talking to her enough is the absolute worst.
7. I don't regret anything that I do, ever.
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